Your question is hilarious - to say the
least! Let them go on their way. Why should you be worried?
The mind is going in one direction; the heart is going in another
direction. It is none of your business to interfere. Simply remain a
witness and see where these fellows are going. Not understanding the
secret of awareness is the cause of your problem.
You are neither the heart nor the mind.
You are a pure consciousness behind them. And unless you get
identified they cannot go anywhere; they don′t have their own
energy.
You ask me,
And I have been
teaching you that your heart, your body, your mind, should follow
you. This is how we go on misunderstanding.
You are not to be a follower of any; you are simply to be a witness.
Witnessing the mind moving in one direction and the heart in another
is a great experience. Experience that you are neither of them. You
can remain above and they cannot move very far. They need each
other′s support and finally they need energy from you, because you
are life, they are only instruments.
Your question is just like this: my left hand wants to follow this
side, my right hand wants to follow this side - what am I supposed
to do? Of course, to follow the right is always good. Right is right
and left is wrong!
Not to follow is the secret of freedom, and once your heart and your
mind know that you are not a man who is going to follow, they will
stop quarreling, they will stop moving, because they don′t have any
energy. The energy comes from you and it comes because you get
identified with them, but every identification is wrong.
She has been having therapy for some time without finding much improvement in her generally depressed and confused state. Finally she tells her therapist that she is going away for a few weeks for a holiday in Greece. Some time later the shrink receives a postcard from Ruthie which says, "Having a lovely time, but WHY?"
You cannot even have a lovely time without inquiring why - and
that destroys your whole joy. The questions are a disturbance. No
question is of any importance. Just to be silent and watch what goes
on around in you - in the mind, in the heart - and remain aloof,
will not only solve this question, it will solve all your questions.
But mind loves to ask!
You are saying you feel very happy following the heart and you know
it is always good... Who told you? The heart has also committed as
many crimes as the mind.
When a Mohammedan destroys the statue of a Gautam Buddha, do you
think he is doing it from the mind? It is his heart. When he forces
somebody on the point of the sword to change his religion and become
a Mohammedan, do you think he is following his mind? He is following
his heart. The heart has its own conditionings which go deeper than
the conditionings of the mind.
The heart has always been praised for the simple reason that it gets
no chance - the mind goes on playing the whole game and society
prepares you not to listen to the heart.
But the Christians who were killing Mohammedans, and the Mohammedans
who were killing Christians - and they are still doing that - not
for a moment does a doubt arise that what they are doing is
absolutely inhuman and cannot be religious. If it was done by the
mind the question would have arisen, but because it is done by the
heart, the heart does not know questioning. They feel with absolute
certainty that if a man is killed in a crusade which they call
jihad, then that man has already reached to paradise. And according
to the number of people you kill, the more certain becomes your
paradise.
These are not mind things. They have entered the heart, slowly,
slowly sinking down through the centuries. Just one difference is
that the mind always questions if what you are doing is right or
wrong. The heart never questions. That′s why all the religions want
you to surrender, to be faithful, to believe. These are the
qualities which enter into the heart.
I don′t teach the mind. For that there are thousands of
universities. I don′t teach the heart because I know the heart can
do things more cruelly than the mind. The mind at least hesitates;
the heart believes totally.
I teach you awareness of your being beyond both the heart and the
mind. I say unto you, disidentify yourself and they will forget
going this way or that way. And for the first time you will be the
master and they will simply be servants. You can order them and they
will have to follow, because without your order they cannot get any
nourishment.
Anutosh Pradip, as far as your problem is concerned, let both of
them go wherever they want. Simply remain centered - above, alert,
not being dragged by them and not being influenced by them. Then
your purity of awareness will lead you to the cosmic purity of
existence. That is the only way of merging with the whole. All else
is just an utterly futile exercise.
Your silence will take you to the right path. Neither does your mind
know silence nor your heart. Your consciousness will take you in the
right direction. Neither does your mind know how to be conscious nor
your heart. They are both fast asleep and whatever they do is going
to prove stupid and dangerous to yourself and others.
If all the crimes that have been committed in the world are counted,
then you will be surprised that all the religions are the
fundamental causes of those crimes. They teach love and they
practice hate. They teach oneness and they practice discrimination.
The religious history of man is so mean, so ugly, that to be part of
any religion is to prove that you are retarded, that you don′t know
what these religions have done.
Old Sam Finkelstein arrives from Russia to visit his relatives in
America. On his way to Texas he sits down in a train between two
rednecks. He nods in a friendly way but the rednecks sit in stony
silence.
Old Sam notices an American newspaper lying on the seat and picks it
up. Having taken classes in English for the past few months, he is
able to read most of the page, but all of a sudden he turns to the
redneck on his right and says in a thick Russian accent, "You look
like an intelligent man. Would you be kind enough to tell me what
this word is?"
The redneck winks at his friend and without looking at the paper
says, "That word is ′syphilis′."
Old Sam thanks him and reads on. A few minutes later he turns to the
other redneck and says, "You are obviously a man of education. Would
you kindly tell me what this word is?"
The redneck smirks, winks at his friend and ignoring the newspaper
says, "That word is ′gonorrhea′."
"Syphilis and gonorrhea?" cries old Sam. "Ah, my God
- that poor George Bush!"
Don′t take any problem, any question seriously. Your taking them
seriously makes them important and forces you to find the solution.
Whenever a question arises in you, just be silent and watch the
arising of the question. Watch how it becomes more condensed, watch
how it becomes more clear - but go on watching. And you will be
surprised that just as you are simply watching and not getting
involved, it starts evaporating. Soon there is tremendous silence
left behind it, and this silence is the answer!
But what do people do? A question arises in their minds - and there
are thousands of questions; you will need millions of lives to find
the answers for all of them. Still you will remain ignorant,
knowledgeably ignorant. And because of the question you start asking
others... perhaps somebody else knows the answer - that makes you a
beggar. The knowledge that you get from others is borrowed; it is
not going to help you at all.
One thing and only one thing helps.
Watch the question and don′t be dragged by it in any direction.
Be silent and see the whole question and what happens to it. It
comes and it goes; no question remains there. It is just like a
signature on water: you have not even made your full signature, and
it has started to disappear.
The art of meditation is how to make your questions disappear, not
to give you an answer. The answer will bring new questions and there
is no end to it. Meditation will leave you in a space where there is
no question, no answer, but only a purity, a simplicity - the same
that you had known when you were born. You were alive but there was
no question. You were so full of wonder. Your eyes sparkled seeing a
small thing.
In a right society - for which I go on hopelessly hoping - a
child′s innocence should not be destroyed. And when we have an
almost oceanic innocence all around, the beauty and the experience
of it are so tremendous and so strong that who cares about stupid
questions? In fact they never arise.
A man of this century whom I have
loved much. He was condemned from all corners - not as much as I am
condemned, but he prepared the way. He was walking in a garden early
in the morning with a small child, and the small child asked,
"Uncle, why are the trees green?"
As far as language is concerned, the question is absolutely correct,
but you know that it is stupid and you cannot say that it is stupid.
If it had been somebody other than D.H. Lawrence, who was a man of
great sincerity and authenticity... Any other knowledgeable person
would have told the child that trees are green because of a certain
chemical, chlorophyll.
Perhaps for the moment the child would have been silent:
chlorophyll.... But sooner or later the questions were bound to
arise, "Why do all the trees have chlorophyll? Who goes on giving
them chlorophyll? What is the purpose of making all the trees full
of chlorophyll? What is chlorophyll...?"
But D.H. Lawrence looked at the innocent eyes of the child and said,
"My boy, trees are just green," and the boy was immensely happy. The
trees are green because they are green - it is not a problem, and
the small boy understood it. What can you do? If the trees are
green, they are green. It is their problem, it is not our problem -
why should we be bothered?
But as man grows and is filled and fed by all kinds of knowledge and
information in the name of educating him, in the name of making him
civilized and cultured, we spoil a tremendously beautiful innocence.
And there is no need to know why the trees are green.... It is
perfectly good that they are green. If they decide to change, that
is their problem, they can change.
But look at people′s questions and you will find that all questions
without exception are stupid. Although I might say that this
question is very significant, you know I am a contradictory man. It
does not bother me, why should it bother you? I am controversial. It
has never bothered me, it has bothered the whole world. Strange!
These are my problems and I don′t consider them as problems. They
are my unique individuality. Why should you bother? And people get
sad....
He had
dropped sannyas because "Osho says many things which are
not in The Bible." I am not speaking on The Bible. I don′t care a
bit about The Bible. But deep down he must have been waiting to be
confirmed in his beliefs, to be blessed: "You are right and your
Bible is right." And strangely enough, before that he had not read The Bible!
He took sannyas first thinking that I am talking about The Bible.
And being impressed he went into an utterly boring book, The
Bible.
No intelligent man can read it from the first page to the last page
- nobody does it. And what is the problem? Why should I talk about
things which are in The Bible? Rather than dropping The
Bible, he
dropped sannyas. Such is the way of conditioning.
One is describing with her hands the tremendous grapefruits she has seen in Africa. Then the second one, also with her hands, describes the huge bananas she has seen in India. The third nun, a little deaf, asked, "Father who?"
Strange questions - nothing to do with your own being and its
growth. But people go on for their whole lives and finally, they
become just walking encyclopedias. They know everything, and deep
inside at the center is still the same innocence with which they
were born. It is not knowledgeable, it is not ignorant; it is simply
innocent.
And to be utterly innocent is the whole purpose of all meditations,
particularly here. I allow you to ask questions so that I can
destroy them as much as possible.