Milarepa, I have been ringing and you go on turning from this side
to that side, and you go on pulling your blanket over yourself.
What do you want? Should the alarm clock jump up on you and take the blanket off, and also throw some cold water on your face? What else have I been doing? But sleep is such - spiritual sleep - that you start interpreting even the alarm.
In ordinary sleep you also do it. When the alarm goes off, you have a dream that you are in a temple and bells are ringing. That is a trick of your mind. It is deceiving you; it is the alarm clock, not the temple, not the bells ringing.
Spiritual sleep is far deeper and thicker. First, it is difficult to hear - and even if you hear it, there is every possibility of interpreting it as something else. Stop interpreting it. Make it a point while you are awake - sometimes you are really awake, when you are with me here - and there are moments when you are touching the fourth stage of awakening. In those moments make a decision that you will not forget. This decision just has to be reinforced again and again in the waking moments; then one day you are going to wake up.
It is everybody′s birthright to wake up. It is our intrinsic quality. But everything depends on your decisiveness. I have seen people putting on an alarm clock to wake them up at four o′clock in the morning, and then, in sleep, just putting it off and going back to sleep. And in the morning they don′t remember. They look at the clock: "What happened? I put the alarm on." And I had to tell them, "Your alarm awakened me and I saw you - you were putting it off."
I have seen people throwing their alarm clocks - so angry, because at four o′clock one is really in such a beautiful sleep, and this alarm clock seems like an enemy. People have broken their alarm clocks, and I have seen it happen in front of me. And I said, "This is something!" And they went back to sleep. And in the morning they inquired, "What happened? Who threw my alarm clock?"
And spiritual sleep is certainly far deeper. So your decisions have to come not with ordinary wakefulness; you have to decide to wake up when you are really feeling awake. Then the decision goes deep, as deep as your spiritual sleep. And everybody is going to wake up. Every night has its morning, and every man has his enlightenment. It is just a question of when you want it.
Do you really want it? Then it can happen even without any alarm clock. Then it can happen right now.
A great mystic was at the last
moment of his life, and he gathered his followers. He had
thousand of followers who had been listening to him for
years. And the whole teaching of the Buddhist mystics is
vipassana - watchfulness, witnessing.
Before leaving the body, he said, "Now I am leaving. I will not be here again tomorrow to tell you to watch, to witness, to be awake; so if anybody is ready, he should stand up and I can take him with me."
Everybody looked at each other, thinking that perhaps somebody might be ready. Just one man raised his hand but he did not stand up. Out of those thousands, one man raised his hand. The mystic said, "Even that gives me great satisfaction."
That man said, "Don′t misunderstand me - I am only raising my hand. I want to ask - right now I am not ready because there are so many things to do. My girl is becoming marriageable, my boy is graduating from the university, my wife is sick, some help has to be found. I raised my hand just to ask you, as you will not available again, to tell me what has to be done."
And the mystic said, "I was telling it my whole life! Where have you been?"
He said, "I have been coming every day, but what to do? - the whole night there are worries, all kinds. Only in your presence do I find peace and fall asleep. So I have not heard what you have been saying. I wait every morning to come here because this is the only place where I find peace and fall asleep. And because tomorrow you will not be here, I want simply to ask what has to be done."
But not a single man was ready to go or stood up with the master. And the master laughed. He said, "I was just joking! I cannot take anybody with me. But I was seeing whether you have been listening to me or not. And this man is right. And he is not right only about himself, he is right almost about everybody. So I will explain vipassana again."
He said, "This time, please don′t fall asleep, remain awake because this is the last time. I will not be here tomorrow. Don′t try any kind of consolation - ′he is just joking, he will be here, he cannot leave us′ - I am certainly going."
And while he was telling them about vipassana, he looked all around - particularly at the man who had raised his hand. He was fast asleep! It had become deeply associated - the master talking about vipassana was the beginning of sleep; the moment the master started talking about vipassana, the man felt so peaceful.
The mystic said, "It is useless - you will not hear me unless the time is ripe for you. Perhaps in some life...."
It is not necessary that a master is needed. If you are awake then anything can function as an alarm. Your symbolism is right: the master is an alarm, but even the alarm of the master cannot function without your cooperation; you have to be with him, available, ready. It is only a question of total determination in a fully awakened state of mind.(Osho - The Transmission of the lamp #29)